So if being single wasn’t bad enough, though some may argue that as a pro rather than a con and I can’t say I can agree with one side or another.It’s nice to wake up to someone and know that you’re loved the way you want to be loved, but at the same time, it’s nice to wake up and be able to “hunt.” Gwarsh, I remember having this discussion with Devin when we were having relationship anxiety. Oh those were good days

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Tomorrow, well Monday, soon to be today. I have several errands to run for myself. I’m leaving school around 11p so I can make it into the city around 12p. Giving me ‘x’ amount of time to walk to one of five printers and see whether or not they can print my portfolio presentation folder. Than at 2.0p I’m going to one of Parson’s information sessions so I can ask some of the questions I’ve been bothered by. Most of the having to do with the application process. I’m assuming that’ll take about an hour or less, if not I’ll have to leave anyway because I need to finish walking around to the other printers. I’m hoping around 5.0p I can catch Chris and have lunch/dinner, catch up on things and just hang out for a while. Chris you had better not be lame ;x Afterwards I have a show at 8.0p, what show, what show? Chicago, yes I know, bow down and envy me for getting a free ticket in a rather nice seat. I’m going so I can get a critical analysis in for my IB Theater Arts class. Hey, I know that class was good for something…

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One of my major concerns for december. Parsons has two portfolio review days, the fourteenth and the twenty-first. I’m almost sure I won’t be able to make the fourteenth, at least in terms of having my portfolio ready (this is excluding the folder). So I’m planning on going to the twenty-first, but that’s the same day as my winter concert for concert chorale / chamber singers and it’s a requirement to pass the quarter (unless something drastic happens, normally a family member dying…why always death?). I already pissed my teacher off because I went home after a week of exhaustion than sing two songs for the parents coming to eighth orientation, sue me? I’m certain he wouldn’t fail me but he wouldn’t give me that 100 grade that boosts my average up either.

At the same time, we all know that I’m over-worried that my portfolio isn’t good enough for Parsons and that’s what terrifies me. How I see it, college is much more important than singing at a concert. But at the same time, I’m relying on my GPA and curricular activities to help me get into Parsons, however, my art teachers strongly suggest I go to one because it’ll give me an idea of what I can do to my portfolio before I have to turn it in and have my interview.

I think I’m going to ditch the concert, but I don’t know what to do. I know he’s going to disapprove of me going to the portfolio review, he’ll say, “I’m depending on you for the Bass section Christopher.” Which, in my eyes, is complete bullshit because every day in class it’s the second row of basses rather than the forth row. I know without a doubt every frockin’ note on those pages, and so does my partner, Andrew. BUT THE ROWS BEHIND AND IN FRONT OF US DON’T KNOW THEM AND HARDLY SING! It’s the little things like this that piss me off and irritate me. I love chorus, but I don’t like being told that a group of freshmen are the only ones able to sing the same exact notes that I’m singing.

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I’m deciding to take a run at 5.0a because I feel like I should…I’m not gaining flub, I’m still 115-117 but meh. I feel incredibly lazy and unhealthy.