This if the first post after the New Years, it only took me two weeks to actually write a new years thing. Meh, don’t judge me! I’ve been incredibly busy, seriously, if you continue to read you’ll hear all about it.

I finished one of the biggest chunks of my life, the college application. I applied to the following schools: Fashion Institution of Technology, Parsons: the New School, NYC College of Technology and New York University. All but NYU I applied for some form of design program, NYU was a last minute spur of the moment totally unplanned decision to go to a university and major in design / chemistry. Now I have to wait several months before I find out. S-h-i-t-? I have so much crap still left to do though, well hrm…depends, it’s not really that much but it’s more than I want =x

I haven’t finished the Parsons challenge, though I’ve been taking several pictures of Bayville and I’ve found some…well, nifty things. I’m really amazed by how much Bayville has changed- a lot of the playground areas are run-down or have been replaced with brighter, newer, safer ones; the docks have been completely torn apart from the various storms and lack of care, there are fences securing off what use to be getaways and areas I thought were secret aren’t secret anymore. In fact, they’ve been trashed. I found so much garbage that I got rather pissed off, I mean, there was a pile of plastic bottles and tires and fold-able chairs and then at MY playground. The one that hasn’t changed at all, I found condoms, bottles of liquor and cigarettes all over. I felt so sad to see my cherished haven treated like it was a little Texas whore house.

Did I mention how much I hate essays? I’ve been writing so many essays because of applications and scholarships, not to mention International Baccalaureate classes. So. Much. Fucking. Writing. I hate writing academia bullshitus!

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The spring musical, the Pajama Game, has started and there’s been a lot of chaos amongst the girls and grades. I personally disagree with the selection, some people definitely did better than others and some truly deserved a role. I know I won a role by default because I did horribly with singing, but I did rock ass in personality, dancing and acting =) Anyway. I’ve gained the role of Hines, the Time Study or Manager of the Pajama factory and I get the big job of opening the show! Yay! I ask for a small role and yet I’m in every other scene, fuck, I mean, yay!

I’ve been getting dirty looks for saying that, and you know? Fuck you guys. I’m happy I got the role, I wish it was smaller but it’s what I got and I don’t like any of the other ones.

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I’ve recently encountered Jon and Ryan Fufu, two guys who I think are so cute and adorable. Haha. I’ve never met Ryan, but I’ve met Jon under other conditions. His boyfriend was my ex’s ex from a while ago, and well I know that sounds confusing but hey…let’s see if I can diagram this:

Danny (my ex) use to date Kyle who is now dating Jon.

I feel bad for saying this but I stayed with Danny longer than I should have to spend more time with Jon =x I know, so dirtbag blah blah blah I’ve done worse and I’ve seen worse and worse has happened to me. Karma. Yea!

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I might have hurt a really important boy in my life =x

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Ambi and I are slowly reconnecting. That makes me happy…Lily and I are too, though she’s more preoccupied with the essentials of a teenage life: sex, drugs and alcohol. But at least she’s going to try to go to college.

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I’ve also come to realize who are real friends and who aren’t. The ones that aren’t flakes and say they’ll call or do something, that really pisses me off. This is the first year that I’ve actually decided to go to parties with my own class because it’s the last year and even if I do see them drunk and fucked up and shit, it’s my last year- who cares? As long as I don’t do stupid shit. And ironically, friends have been wanting to see me get drunk and party with them but only a handful actually inform me or take me, yes I can’t drive yet.

Speaking of driving, I’ve come to learn that I might’ve taken 16 driving lectures for nothing since I didn’t do any driving, I’m potentially endanger of failing even though I passed the final. Uhm. What. The. FUCK. So pissed off with that!

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So much shit due, so much shit to do!