I was hit in the gut earlier today by someone close, and that was during class. It was unexpected and it brought me to the phase where you know you’re going to cry if you don’t push it away, so I pretty much thought of other things, haphazardly speaking, just to make that feeling disappear.
Then I found out today, through my oh so terrible use of the web, stuff that shouldn’t bother me but it does, and it’s another hit in the gut. In the end I know it’s my fault, and the situation that is now was caused by me, and there’s probably never ever a way of reversing that with either, and a part of me wonders whether or not it’s a good thing or a bad thing.
All I really want to do right now is run outside in the freezing city, specifically union square, and just shout at the top of my lungs.
5 responses so far ↓
1 sara Feb 22, 2008 at 11:07 am
that is pretty crummy someone did that to you!sometimes you have to let it roll off your shoulders and not let it get to you:)
2 One Winged Angel Feb 23, 2008 at 9:16 am
Oh, I was referring to your ‘Dance’ theme. Forgot the full name of it but i found it thru Artician
3 Marsha Mar 6, 2008 at 8:41 am
Aww, that sucks. :/ But yeah, there are things that bother me even though they shouldn’t. It’s one of those things that I can’t help… don’t let it get you down though.
4 Vickie Mar 11, 2008 at 5:40 am
Aww, hope the people involved will never do/say those things to hurt you again. Hope you’re feeling better now, too.
5 amy May 2, 2008 at 9:50 pm
Sounds like a complicated situation you have there but I hope you’re feeling better.
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